lately i've been thinking
to change my self.
i want to be a good guy
no more bad guy
but i don't know
weather i can do that.
i don't ask for popularity
but i just ask for being known
at least
not as a bad guy.
sometimes
i keep thinking.
do i have really to change myself back like i used to be
when i first enter poli?
bcoz they like i being nice to them.
i want to tell everyone
that i still who i am
i not change at all.
it just my attitude.
i still can be a person that can be trust.
u still can believe me, ask me anything
and i will be there to help u,
to cheer u up.
when i'm in the class
i see people look,
they look at me like i'm a scumbag
like i'm a trash
like i'm .....
nobody.
and here i am
still stay up
eventhough now is 4 in the morning.
thinking of the pain that i had in this life
the sorrow that cannot be thrown away.
i'm such a phailure.
i used to tell all my classmates
that i want to achieve success with them
but now...
i'm no longer can be that person.
i love them very much.
like the post before,
i said
i just want to watch them happy
eventhough i'm not there.
but now...
i can't do that.
they have changes
they use to be in same group
always together gether
but now...
hard to say.
is all my plan
is a mistake?
is that a rubbish
and give me more burden?
from what i see
i purposely.....
what is wrong with me?
how i can be such a dumb?
i don't want to be hypocrite
i want to be myself.
All i ask for my life
is one.
i don't want to be alone.
4 comments:
just be yourself! n tak salah juga kalau nak berubah ke arah kebaikan. :)
i don't know whether i can do that....
sure u can la.. if u want
i hope so.
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