my life is like astronaut.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011 by Zaney
last night
i chatting with my PA
we talk about the class.
she said
i have to represent the class for the time being
until we have next meeting.
i think i can do that.
and i suggest a name to her.
kinda funny for me :)

my PA is very kind and she understand people
i like her very much.
i'm glad that i have a PA like her.
she easy to talk with
and nvr mad when i ask anything.


i'm always alone
sometimes i beg someone to be by my side
i don't care if we not talking
just stay at my side
i don't mind
i want to feel someone presence in my life
I WANT PEOPLE KNOW THAT I EXIST
thats all.
actually, i don't mind being alone
but sometimes, i need someone to company me in loneliness.
i know that i'm a bored person
i'm not a talkative person
but at least, just stay.

there are people in this world who enjoy being alone.
but there isn't a single person who can bear solitude


i want a girlfriend
i want to love a girl and to be love by a girl
but i don't know how to be in relationship.
i don't want to be like a guy
who find girl, then break, find girl, then break
again and again and again non stop.
i want to be in relationship from now
and marry her.
i know its kinda 'jiwang' but
i don't want to be a fool in relationship.
i want commitment.

from what i observe
girls like guy that have a good looking
have money to treat them
and then loyalty.
i don't have 2 out of it
i have loyalty.
i really wish that i have a girlfriend.
i'm not a type that very picky
but at least i want some of these type
not gedik, polite, not asking anything too much,
understand me, half good looking, and some more.
very - very pretty one,
i kinda not like it bcoz too popular.
hahaha...


soon,
i won't be in the class anymore
i wonder when... ??
:)




~Dizzup~
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whatever u think, its not what u think.

Monday, December 19, 2011 by Zaney
and so....
the semester break is gonna end soon
this wednesday will take a flight go to perlis
college start on thursday
and i'm not ready for it
*actually i do*

those kids don't know that i
talked to PA that i don't want to be class rep anymore
or probably they know.
owh well, i really reallys wish
that PA will not change her mind.
i have enough with all these things.
i wanna be free.

i've been thinking alot
and i already make a plan
for my life on next sem.
so boys and girls
just wait and see
for what i'm gonna do.
u guys will probably hate me
afterwards.
*i really really wish that u all hate me*

anyway my friend,
u said that ur old sickness has haunt u back, right?
guess who's fault is that?
it actually u.
if u not realize yet..
let me tell u something...
i always try to talk with u
i want to know how u have been nowadays
i don't want our friendship end just like that.
i know, that we are just an internet friend
but come on, we could be best friend.
and we use to be a best friend.
but now, u seem ignore me
whenever i talk to u
u seem have no interest to talk with me
u think that a good friend do?
i know, u had enter college and met new friend
but u make me feel horrible, u ignore me.
u should ashame for ur self bro...
i think (i don't know whether it true or not)
all of ur friend tried to cheer u up
but u negatively think about them.
u think that they ignore u?
u think that they hate u?
u think that they not care a thing about u?
they actually do care about u.
IT JUST YOU.
YOU GOT PROBLEM MAN.
u need to be fix.
do u still remember what u use to said to me?
u want to be a singer
u want the whole world know u
when u get married, u want me to come to ur wedding.
u said, that one day u want to meet in reality
(how come it can be true when u stop talking to me?)
u said, Eat alone? Movie alone? Outing alone? Shop alone?
come on, not only u man.
i also did those things alone.

I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR U.
I WANT TO BE WITH U.
I KNOW I SUCK IN ENGLISH, BUT U CAN UNDERSTAND RIGHT?
I LOVE TO TALK WITH U.
I WISH THAT WE WILL REALLY MEET IN REALITY
I REALLY DO.
U KNOW WHAT, I ALWAYS DREAM AND IMAGINE THAT SOMEDAY
I WILL BE TALK WITH U, ENJOY DOING THINGS WITH U.
it just...
u the one who break my dream, my friend.
it really hurt me alot when u ignore me.


i did mention something in my class group page in facebook.
and they don't know what the real meaning of what i say.
u guys just wait
i will be leaving
REALLY LEAVING
*my soul*




i think thats all....
love u all
and i will leave u guys(to all my classmates)
goodbye is the word that i can easily say to u guys.





~GOODBYE~
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