appreciation

Thursday, February 2, 2012 by Zaney
appreciate.
why i so hard to see people
appreciate things that happen to them?
they want something that they hard to have.
i don't know to talk about :|

u know what u want
but still...
why u so hard to achieve something that are so useless to u?

people never appreciate other people
for what they did to them.
they still argue and not satisfy with one.
they will always try to find the mistake.
if u appreciate him/her
at least once,
u will know the happiness behind appreciation.
u fall, they help u to get up.
u have something missing,
they find it for u.
still...
why u nvr appreciate them?

i don't know how to say it
but...
from what i see...
they always complain everything.
food, education, people's behaviour, surrounding,
easy to say... EVERYTHING.
i don't know
i really don't know.

i know
that many people hate me
especially girls.
bcoz the way i talk to them,
the way i describe them.
i know, that i not so perfect.
the way they talk with me,
the way the greet me.
i can feel the heat from them.
i know, and always know.
i'm sorry.
i don't want to complain why i acting like that.
i just want u to know.
that i will
be there
for u.


i know nobody will ready this
but....
if u happen to read
tell the whole world
that i'm not a jerk.
i won't stop the way i am.
if i want to stop, i don't.

just...
don't be surprise
if there will be a different in me.


to ladies,
i never hate u
but will hate u if u become a scumbag.









sincerely,
the guy that nobody know who's he really is.
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idiotic

Tuesday, January 31, 2012 by Zaney
being at poly
don't have any privacy at all
if i have done something in front of them
they will talk about it
and tell the whole poly about it
how fuck is that??

especially this guy
always want to know about people
than tell other people
about his friend behaviour
so lame...
he even checking my phone message
what is wrong with that fucking guy?
doesn't he know privacy?
when people want to see his message
he don't let people see
but when he see people message
he think people will not mad?
fuck him.
idiot.

and also
u
yeah u
the one who read my blog
u my classmate
u the one who told a guy
about me
i know
when u read my blog
u tell other people
u think i don't know?
u son of the bitch.
yeah.
i'm regret being friend with u
u think u become so quiet in the class this sem
make u look so cute?
go die bitch.
just go die.

*posting saying like 'i miss my home', 'i miss my parent'. lol... u bullshit.*
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0.o

Tuesday, January 24, 2012 by Zaney
today my birthday
and few hours later
will be going back to perlis
since my flight at 7.05am
i can't celebrate with my family
well,
its fine with me
feel so lonely.

so many people wish my birthday
and which one of them
really truely wish me
with their heart?
i bet,
they just wish me
bcoz its facebook.
(some people think, its rude not to wish their friend in facebook)
lol.
what a foolish.

well,
i don't mind
i just want to thanks you all for wishing me
and yeah, i don't count how many people that wishing me
i'm not that pathetic person.
cool.




another day pass by without i notice it.
nice day isn't it?
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i don't care if i don't care

Saturday, January 21, 2012 by Zaney
i'm home !!!
just arrived around 11.30pm
the flight got delay.
damn...

i don't know why i want go home.
no.
i don't know the reason i should go home
but still...
home is better than college.
>.>

i remember something
my friend told me
that i don't get any comments and likes at facebook.
to tell ya the truth,
i don't even care about that.
my status is about myself.
i know people won't comments and likes my facebook
but they do know what i been through.
i don't even think about popularity
i'm not that pathetic lonely person
asking people to comments and like me :)
but you...
you got many friends
but yet how much you get likes and comments?
friends almost 1000, but getting likes below 30.
how many people that u chat with?
not all those people right?
suck to be you,
my friend.

i will be busy starting today !!!
too busy than being at college.
you don't know what i've been through at home
so don't say that you know me.
YOU REALLY DON'T KNOW ME!!!
AHAKZZZ!!!!


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the feeling that some people in the world can feel it.

Monday, January 16, 2012 by Zaney
lately
i've been so much lazy
not doing all assignment from lecturer.
all my friend making coding (programming)
and me, playing games and online 24 hours.
i wonder what has happen to me.

but i feel great
all my friend has start working hard
not to fall back like last semester.
they don't want to get the result like they did before.
they have change abit
and i feel happy for them.

i don't want to thinking too much
i want my life become so smooth.
i don't want to regret anything in this college life.
i will do everything so that i can be happy.
some people say,
college life is the greatest world.
i will hold that quote for awhile.








i guess
i will stop being a jerk now.
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.....

Thursday, January 12, 2012 by Zaney
here i am
alone in the dark
watching the stars that very shine
have many friends around
doing their own best things
shine to people
down here.

i just know something
that i never expect to know
and i actually follow their...
but i won't tell to other guys
they will make fun of them.








i want to say many things
but my words has been swallowed by sorrow and pain
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sarcasm.

Friday, January 6, 2012 by Zaney
lately i've been thinking
to change my self.
i want to be a good guy
no more bad guy
but i don't know
weather i can do that.

i don't ask for popularity
but i just ask for being known
at least
not as a bad guy.

sometimes
i keep thinking.
do i have really to change myself back like i used to be
when i first enter poli?
bcoz they like i being nice to them.

i want to tell everyone
that i still who i am
i not change at all.
it just my attitude.
i still can be a person that can be trust.
u still can believe me, ask me anything
and i will be there to help u,
to cheer u up.

when i'm in the class
i see people look,
they look at me like i'm a scumbag
like i'm a trash
like i'm .....
nobody.

and here i am
still stay up
eventhough now is 4 in the morning.
thinking of the pain that i had in this life
the sorrow that cannot be thrown away.
i'm such a phailure.

i used to tell all my classmates
that i want to achieve success with them
but now...
i'm no longer can be that person.
i love them very much.

like the post before,
i said
i just want to watch them happy
eventhough i'm not there.
but now...
i can't do that.

they have changes
they use to be in same group
always together gether
but now...
hard to say.

is all my plan
is a mistake?
is that a rubbish
and give me more burden?
from what i see
i purposely.....

what is wrong with me?
how i can be such a dumb?
i don't want to be hypocrite
i want to be myself.



All i ask for my life
is one.







i don't want to be alone.
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